The real ‘me’ living in the real world today is a hot mess who comes with a disclaimer that says ‘under construction.’ I am a phlegmatic sanguine who often lets a desire for interaction and fun steal my need for peace and quiet. I crave simplicity but often make things complex. I wake early in the morning to have quiet time and coffee with Jesus in my white space. This time with Him fills me with such a sweet peace…and then I allow that peace to be stolen by distraction. I love people and have the gift of empathy which literally causes me to feel pain when you are hurting and sheer joy when you are happy. I am a coffee drinking, marathon-running wanna be, who used to party like it was 1999 on a regular basis. Thank God for His grace and mercy.
The real ‘me’ in Jesus Christ is in awe every single day. I am still a hot mess…only I am redeemed, renewed, and restored. I am unconditionally loved, cherished, and chosen. He has ignited a passion in me to reach others through serving and writing and mostly through prayer. He has given me a boldness to pray with you instead of saying I will pray for you later. He has given me the confidence to not be ashamed of who I am in Him and to consider persecution for my faith a blessing. I am weak…but He is strong. I mess up every day…but in Him I am forgiven. I am unlovable…and He loves me anyway. I am covered in mud and muck…but He claims me as His Princess. I have done things that make me shudder…but in Him I am a new creation. Psalm 139 tells me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that He knows me. HE. KNOWS. ME. THE. REAL. ME.
He is challenging me to hold each thought captive and not remember things of the old, because He doesn’t. He is challenging me to see others through His eyes which causes me to need a whole new pair of glasses in some cases. He is redefining my character to match what He is calling me to do with my life. He loves me…and I am humbled and grateful that He continues to work to show me who He designed me to be.